Hope

Spring brings hope to my heart no matter what the challenges are.  Even if others say otherwise, I still go on.  Patient endurance.

I was led to the Book of Revelations on my reading this morning and I felt at peace.

“This calls for patient endurance on the part of the saints who obey God’s commandments and remain faithful to Jesus.”  Revelation 14:12

No one but God can stop me from doing everything I can to fulfill my God-given destiny.  I am living up to my potential.  My potential will be an actual from now on.  Thank You Lord.

May the Spirit of the Lord come back to me.  This time in battle gear.  For I will not let anyone ever steal my dreams again.  This is the time to work and fulfill those dreams.  Ephesians 6 will be my guide:

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood,but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. 19 Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

Revelation

Every start of the year, our church has corporate fasting, this year I joined and Victory Makati has a kick-off for prayer and fasting on January 5, that’s my birthday. It was a nice birthday gift–a really nice surprise. 🙂

Anyway, the fasting started and on my first or second day of quiet time with God, I asked Him why my small group sisters are moving and transferring to other branches of our church. He revealed to me that He may have plans for them but He also has a plan for me.

I ask Him why I feel so abandoned and timid and out of place, but He told me to smile at people sincerely. So they will not be intimidated.

I’ve been distracted by the enemy this fasting week, from dreams to traffic in Ayala to bad packaging of pan de sal. Sometimes I fail but sometimes the restraining grace of God is there. I asked God one time to forgive me for offending Him, and the enemy was whispering that I was mean and I shouldn’t be forgiven that I should condemn myself more, but I know that I have been forgiven because God said that He has forgiven my past, present, and future sin because I have faith in Him. And more than that, I have the fruit of the Holy Spirit which is peace and joy.

I am also thankful for this prayer meetings because they helped a lot with my fasting and God’s grace is also sufficient for me to do fasting–I’ve only have about four instances of faint cravings for food. My self-control was so strong I could not believe it. For me it was a breakthrough!

And the best part is God is present in my life and I want to keep this up. I want Him in my life so much. I dedicate my life to Him. God, I am Yours.

God, thank You for the church that You have shown me and for the enabling grace You have given me to overcome my timidity and be an actual member of this church. Thank You because through them I have proven that being a Christian is really cool and You are so cool God. I can’t get enough of You God. I want more of You God. Thank You God. I love You.