The start of this year has been hectic. I have to do a lot of things. I feel a little lost. I am beginning to forget why I do the things I do or why I planned several goals. I’ve been looking and focusing on trivial stuff. Maybe it’s a defense mechanism. I feel like things are very much out of my control. There were so many times when I just wanted to give up. But I can’t. Because most of the time, giving up is harder than continuing on. And I wanted to finish something this time. Giving up in this part of my life has become a habit already. It has to end now. It takes time to attain something worthy. No matter how hard things become with this, I should not give up. Matatapos ko rin ito. Makakatapos din ako. I thank the Lord for His grace.
So Jas, when things are tough, just hold on. Keep on going. Learn from your mistakes and try again. Never give up. It’s not bad to ask for help. Be humble. But believe in yourself.
I always feel like I’m living in a tent. My life is in boxes. Never bothered to unpack and always ready to go. It is really exhausting. Not being able to live to the fullest. Why make the effort when I will leave soon anyway? That has always been my thought. Been praying to God to finally be able to settle down in our own house. But it’s been years and I am still here in the same place. Frozen in fear. Unable to move. Daydreaming of just-in-case, I would often go to the home store and buy pretty/quality kitchen and dining stuff but because of how I think, I wouldn’t even use them.
It’s only recently, in one of my home store visit when I finally had the courage to open those boxes and start using them. My husband and I even bought a sofa, our own TV, and created a space for living. This is our home now even though we’re just renting. Tent or not, it’s time to unpack.
I finally found a website where I can buy a pink mechanical keyboard! Oh how did I get into this?! Mechanical keyboards are not really cheap.
I have always loved typewriters. It started when I was in 4th grade. I didn’t even know how to use them, no one really taught me. I can’t remember how I was able to insert a paper and typed. I used my two middle fingers in typing and from then on, I’ve been typing.
A few years ago, I tried to look online if I can still buy a typewriter but they are so much expensive now. Then I came across this mechanical keyboard that looks like a typewriter and even sounded like one. I wanted to buy it of course but when I looked at the price, I changed my mind. 🙂
I started watching study vlogs for motivation and some of the vloggers have mechanical keyboard. I like the sound of most of them, so I got curious so this led me to watch videos about mechanical keyboards. I bought my first mechanical keyboard but it was a linear one because the lady who assisted me didn’t know much about them. Then when I checked that shop’s website I found a keyboard with “clicky” switch and was on sale so I quickly called the store to ask if I can swap my keyboard to the other one and they allowed me so I got one that I really liked. However, I would have wanted it in white or pink, so I have been searching for one. But I don’t want to buy it on amazon. A quick google search led me to this website. So now I just have to get a go-signal from my husband which will take some time. 🙂
For me, it’s Harry Potter. Hands down. It is that good that after finishing the whole series, it took me years before I went back to reading books again. And so far, I still haven’t found any book better than Harry Potter. But at least I am back to reading. This year I have finished 4 books already. Moreover, I also discovered an app called Books by apple and it’s a more convenient app to buy e-books. I prefer e-books because they are cheaper than physical books and I read faster when it’s an e-book. Now I can read books on my lunchbreak which is really great.
Last night my printer died, on top of everything else. It’s annoying because it stopped my momentum with my studies; moreover, I like this printer because it was heavy duty. I can load lots of paper, scan documents continuously and the ink lasts for a long time. But since it gave up just like that, I wanted to try a different brand and hope that it’s actually gonna be better than this one. Now I have an unused ink cartridges. Too bad it’s not compatible with this brand’s newer models.
I tried to buy a new printer before work but I was running late so I ended up asking Joshua to buy the printer for me instead. And this evening after work, I installed the new printer. Techie stuff. This time I decided to make use of all the features–almost, except for the fax.
Now I am surrounded by technology. I prefer it this way because right now this is the only way I can be connected to the world–to my family and friends.. I just wish there is a technology I have right now that could give me more time so I can finish my assignment. 🙂
One by one I took my memories out of those boxes. Boxes tucked away for 5 years. Memories that I chose to forget. Memories that were really not needed at that time.look at the boxes. 5 years has gone by. Memories after memories. Confronting but therapeutic. To keep. To give away. To throw. Dust. Gloves. Face masks but it’s not due to covid.
Sad but hopeful.
I’ve come this far. Don’t give up now.
The past 5 years hadn’t been easy but they were full of grace.
It’s been really busy at work. Lots of changes. Goodbyes are hard. I try to think that change is part of life but it’s still sad when someone leaves.
Because of so many stuff at work, there is one thing I’ve learned from someone I work with. Make everything as neat as possible. Messy workplace, messy mind so being organized is the way to go.
I’ve always been multi-tasking. Everything I need to do are in places I can see so you can just imagine how messy it can be. But I realize that doing one task at a time is always the way to go. Moreover, the out of sight out of mind can always be “cured” with lists. With my line of work, lists are important.
So far, here are some things that I’ve been incorporating in my work:
Use a calendar or diary to write down the task or to-do list for the day. Everything that hasn’t been done should be transferred on the next day or the next possible day.
Put everything where it’s supposed to be, right away, as much as possible.
Always write a note for endorsement.
Sort out stuff right the first time
As much as possible, follow a routine.
Be open to new stuff, especially if it works better than how you are currently doing it.
What about you? How do you do things? How do you organize your work?
I started using this journal this week. I like the size of the dot grid, not too big. I also like the size of the notebook. It is a standard size. I also bought the A5 size because I’m an A5 lady 😁
I posted a video on how I use this journal. I also use the Diamine ink Sunset with my TWSBI Eco medium nib. I like the colour of this ink but it is prone to false starts, probably the nib itself and has nothing to do with the ink. But I don’t have the same problem with Diamine Hope Pink.
I was supposed to have my yearly eye check this morning but I missed that. Since it’s early, I decided to go straight to Officeworks and buy a USB. My next assignment is due in 3 weeks and I need to do a presentation. My classmate/friend told me that phone mic would suffice but I’ve been thinking about buying this because my voice isn’t as loud so I just want to make sure that they can hear me when I do my presentation online.
This mic is actually bigger than I thought. And the stand is also heavy. I also like the color, it’s all black. This is quite pricey though so I am hoping I could use this for more stuff aside from my school work.
I already tried it this morning but I am hoping to videocall my Mom to see how well it works and to get the hang of it.
So yeah, I just want to post this here and to write something else like debriefing my mind after writing the whole day yesterday writing scientific paper.
It’s been a while. Two years. I still had dreams about this. I’ve been carrying it in my heart.. I wanted to do something about this but a wise person told me that I need not do anything. One day I will know. And that one day happened today (or yesterday).
An assurance from God’s Word that it’s going to be okay.