I can’t sleep. The rain keeps me awake. Or maybe it’s my throbbing legs. They say when you can’t sleep, the best thing to do is talk to the Lord. So I opened my bible and tgis is the verse og the day:
http://bible.com/111/isa.53.3.niv He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.
How comforting it is that Jesus understands what we are going through. He’s been mistreated as well just like us. He is familiar with pain. He knows about pain. He’s been held in low esteem.
Rejected and alone. Mistreated. In pain. God understands these, too. What’s great is that He is able to defeat all of these trials. He’s victorious. And we can share in this victory only if we accept Him as our Lord and Savior.
We are constantly invited to be in His loving presence.
How comforting it is to know I am not alone–to know that I am loved.
Before coming back here, I was reminded to keep my eye on the goal. From experience I have been like a sheep–easily distracted from what is in front of me.
A few weeks ago, several days after I have come back, a distraction came.
But as I was reminded, I have to keep my eye on my goal. Opportunities will come but I have to seek wisdom.
This is also the message I have gathered from the easter service I attended. Waves will come in, but we should anchor with the right foundation so we won’t drift away. That is what faith is. I have been a drifter. I have backslided. But God is kind. He is still holding me–not letting me go. I thank Him for His grace.
Whatever happens with my recent decision, I know that I’ve got to have faith. God is in control. He let things happen for a very good reason.
And for now, I am just relieved that I’m back into God’s loving arms again.
There are so many things I want to do. So many ideas, so little time. Oh I am interested in a lot of things and I want to immerse in them right away.
Lots of pretty things 🙂
It’s the pain at the lower right quadrant, the work pants that I could not close, and the difficulty in breathing. I am at my heaviest. 142lbs. It’s going to be long and tedious. But I’ve done it before. I just hope I’ll find my motivation soon.
I live on online shops, friends, hobbies now that I am in a rural town. It takes a while to get used to this lifestyle. Although there are things that I can never do here, there are also heaps that I have been blessed with just because I’m here.
Anyway, I’m currently surfing the net, trying to find inspiration so I can do the things I need to do.
Raw materials for inspiration:
This and a dose of Kpop 🙂
What am I doing here?
That is what I am always asking myself these past few weeks. Life in the country makes me feel so isolated. I realized that I am now an extrovert ever since I’ve been around people in Tamworth. An extrovert in an isolated place can be challenging.
I’ve been thinking what I really want to do as a hobby. All of the activities I’ve thought of involve interacting with people. I’d rather have coffee with a friend than have movie marathon alone. I’d rather watch news so I would feel connected to the world rather than watch clips on youtube. It’s a good thing that God has given me this opportunity to go and share the Gospel. It’s good that a church has connected me with people in a nearby area to have bible study with. I need this as much as they need it.. 🙂
It’s been a miracle come to think of it. The church which rejected my call for help telling me that they don’t really cater to discouraged Christians but to lost youths was the church which connected me to this. I still don’t have a regular group that I could ask for help and prayer. I felt very much alone in this. But the miracle is–this doesn’t stop me from driving 40km to this area despite the weather condition just to share Jesus with others. Thank God for Hillsong TV, for podcasts and vidcasts from all these Christian churches. Thank God that there is still a church in my area–it’s not the one I would normally go to but God is still present in that church. Come to think of it–they are my group now. It gives me a warm feeling to be with these people just to see them present at church. I feel happy every Friday night at church. Thank You Lord for sending me help in different ways.
Being in the country paves the way for me to trust God in a deeper level. I see another part of what it’s like to trust God completely. It’s quite new to me but I have a good feeling about this–makes me feel at peace, makes me feel like heaven.
They say that we have to eat at least three coloured veggies. Well I’m still trying to psych myself to eat more veggies. So for now, I will be eating more fruits for snacks. This is another small step of mine to living healthy.