Scrap

Scrap. But even if it is a scrap, it’s still a treasure for me. Limited for now. But I try to enjoy it as much as I can.

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I would often walk here during my day off…yes under the heat of the sun…see my shadow? ūüôā

Notice the mountain that serves as a border. What’s on the other side?

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Town proper at 5pm. Almost all stores are already closed.

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Rugby Park near our area. Rugby? Is that where the solvent boys have their sessions? Hehe…

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On my way back to the apartment.

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The owner of this lawn/grass walks barefoot here. Seems logical because I feel guilty stepping on this very green very pretty grass. ūüôā

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My favorite west. According to some, it is dangerous here. So I have to leave before it gets dark.

I also like the Mckers (not sure about the spelling but that is how people call Mcdo here) at west. Date with God.

Some revelations from God that brought tears to my eyes:

God has put me here to set me apart. For whatever His purpose is. He is not finished with me yet.

Only Way

I went here with high hopes. ¬†Isn’t this God’s blessing for me? ¬†Doesn’t He say that He’s going to bless me here? ¬†I went here by faith–anticipating the great things that God is about to do with my life. ¬†I was looking forward to ministry, doing good and great things.

Disappointments after disappointments. ¬† I was lucky enough to set foot on this place. ¬†This place is beautiful. ¬†This place has fresh air. ¬†Lots of free birds, beautiful flowers. ¬†It’s painful to think that I wasn’t contributing enough. ¬†I feel like I’m betraying their trust. ¬†I don’t know how to help myself. ¬†I’ve done what I could. ¬†I’ve loved them enough it hurts. ¬†Maybe I’ve got it wrong. ¬†I had a different expectation. ¬†Yes, I’ve done my best except for this one thing–COMMITMENT. ¬†When I couldn’t get what I want, I held back.

But what works for me before doesn’t work now. ¬†I’ve been disappointed a lot of times. ¬†I am on the verge of giving up and I have given up. ¬†I don’t know how to help myself anymore. ¬†Only God can help me now.

I surrendered this to God. ¬†I don’t expect much anymore. ¬†And that point of giving up–of acknowledging my weakness, that God rises up to help me. ¬†He has always helped me in every way. ¬†But somehow I was always trying to rely on my own ability.

This has been another humbling experience for me.

Now that I am not expecting much, every good thing that happens becomes magnified. ¬†This is God’s glory at work in my life.

I am looking to a fresh new start. ¬†This time I will be committed. ¬†This time I won’t back down. ¬†This time I will embrace the culture. ¬†This time I will love the people around it. ¬†This time I will not expect much from them. ¬†This time I know that God is the Only One who can help me with my skills and knowledge. ¬†With God in it, it’s never too late to start again.

God the Father, put me where You want me to be. ¬†In Jesus’ name, Amen.

3 Months

It’s been three months now. ¬†Away from home. ¬†I have appreciated Philippines more now that I am here. ¬†But this place has been growing in me. ¬†I know that if ever I would leave this place, I would miss this, too.

Everything that happens to us can teach us a lesson or two. ¬†It’s just a matter of perspective.

Do not assume. ¬†It’s better to be sure than to assume and make mistakes. ¬†Have faith, yes, but do not assume i.e. have faith that God will give you someone who will love you–a reflection of God’s love for you but do not assume that this particular person is the one for you unless there is a confirmation. ¬†What is that confirmation? ¬†If that guy would actually lay down his intention for you. ūüôā

Do not give up.  Starting over is hard.  But it will get easier somehow.

To a grateful person, nothing is wasted.  Avoid being proud.  Remind yourself about  humility.  There is a lesson you can learn from everything.  There is something good in everyone..

Without God, I am nothing. ¬†Everything happens with God’s permission. ¬†He knows what us happening in our lives. ūüôā ¬†It is His grace that all these favors have been given to me.

Wherever you are, if God is with you, you will be okay no matter what. ¬†My loneliness and homesickness caused me to seek God more. ¬†There are moments though that I feel okay. ¬†How God loves me. ¬†How God has been teaching me so many things–like how to love, like how to trust Him more.

Love these people.  God wants me to love the Australians by introducing Jesus to them.  I hope that there will be opportunities to do that and that I will finally overcome our language barrier so I can communicate with them more.

Walk by faith and not by sight.  The hand of God is upon my situation.

Surrender to God’s will because His plans are the best. ¬†As Eli would say, “He is the Lord. ¬†Let him do what he thinks is best.” (1 Samuel 3:18).

I anticipate what God is about to do in my life. ¬†I am sure of the blessings He is about to give me–something great is coming my way and it’s going to be good ūüôā

Why I Chose to be a Glutton and Suffered Tonight

There was jasmine rice left, plus that Spam. ¬†But then I was craving for chips (fries), so I decided to drop by Northgate Shopping Centre to buy chips ($3.50) and sweetcorn ($2.20). ¬†I was happily eating chips on my way home. ¬†Then I cooked the corn while eating the spam and rice. ¬†I also drank soda from the fridge. ¬†But then I remembered that I still have some Nescafe Mocha ($3.51 per 10 sachets on sale). ¬†But I remembered that I have to drink my milk (choco milk fortified with Calcium). ¬†So I drank 1 glass (300mg Calcium per 250 ml of milk which is around $2.50 per box) but I would need around 500mg of Calcium so I had to drink another glass. ¬†But this time I was already full. ¬†I told myself that I should not drink anything anymore but I don’t want to go down later just to drink that glass of milk. ¬†So out of laziness, I forced myself to drink that milk. ¬†After that–disaster. ¬†I tried lying on my side just to help my stomach to empty some of its contents, but I could not take it anymore. ¬†I threw up. ¬†There goes my 300mg Calcium.

I would not want to waste all these food but I learned that I should not force myself.  I may gain weight easily but my stomach can only take in as much given a short period of time.  So I should plan what I eat and the amount of it.

Gluttony is not an option.  Gluttony is a sin.  Everything should be in moderation.

I really need to plan my meal now. Hmmm…

Courageous

I’ve watched two movies last night–October Baby and Courageous. ¬†What a great monday night, right? ūüôā

I was inspired to think about this on love:

Don’t worry about love, for love will find its way into the hearts of two people meant to be…trust that love will find its way ūüôā

A love that you do not have to force. ¬†That’s the beauty of love, it will happen on its own. ¬†Staying in love takes commitment, though. ¬†Loving a person is always painful because you’re opening up yourself to this person. ¬†With this person you are vulnerable. ¬†And as much as you want to, no one is perfect–everyone is flawed. ¬†And these flaws hurt. ¬†Except for the love of God. ¬†God loves us and will never hurt us. ¬†He may allow painful things to happen to us but it is always for our own good. ¬†He only wants the best for us. ¬†He will not let you cry by selfishness because He is selfless that He gave His life for us just to save us. ¬†God’s love is restoring, refreshing, oh-so-good, it is gentle. ¬†It is kind. ¬†It is patient. ¬†Read 1 Corinthian 13 and you will know the kind of love that God has for us.

In the final moments in October Baby movie, the girl was walking away from her father towards her dormitory with her boyfriend. ¬†They were about to hold hands when the girl looked back first to her father then hold her boyfriend’s hand. ¬†The girl loves her father more than she loves her boyfriend. ¬†That’s how I would want to be if I enter into a relationship/marriage. ¬†I want to keep God at the center–the first in my life, my One and Only God. ¬†I don’t want to fall into idolatry. ¬†I will always want to choose God over any other.

A Little More

Follow God’s example on how to love.

I can see the hand of God at work in my life. ¬†But it would be better if He will allow me to get what I want, right? ¬†But He knows better and I trust Him. ¬†I am surrendering my will to His will. ¬†For things are falling into place–like something has been revealed to you and that you have seen how everything is unfolding.

God is teaching me on love. ¬†How to love God more and how I should love others through God’s example.

Based on what I’ve been reading lately:

Love is an action. ¬†It’s not a feeling. ¬†It is a decision. ¬†It is action. ¬†It is more than attraction and arousal. ¬†It is a decision. ¬†Loving one another is a command from God. ¬†We can’t command our feelings though. ¬†So love is not a feeling but an action. ¬†“If love were just an emotion, then God could not command it. ¬†But love is something you do. ¬†It can produce emotion, but love is an action.” (Rick Warren)

Love is a choice.  You must choose to love.  You may have been brought to this moment.  You may feel like you have no choice.  But really, when it comes to love, you have a choice.  That is why we have free will.  God wants us to freely choose to love Him.

We love because God first loved us. ¬†It’s a fact of life. ¬†You go into a relationship if you know that that person loves you. ¬†You’ve got to love each other. ¬†But sometimes we are asked to show love to others even if they do not love us. ¬†And we can do that because the source of our love is the love of God for us. ¬†We can show kindness because we know how to love and love is kindness.

Love is a skill that can be learned.  The only way to be great at loving is to love.

Love is a habit. ¬†We are called to love everyone even the unlovable. ¬†It can only happen through God. ¬†If we receive God’s love in our lives, we can then learn to love others.

13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part,10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. (1 Cor 13 NIV)

What a great passage! ¬†I’ve been reading this passage for years now but it is only now that I come to understand this. ¬†Thank You God for Your grace, for letting me understand what this means. ¬†I love You Lord. ¬†I choose to love You Lord.

The Day

It is someone’s birthday. I never thought that I’d be here already, miles apart from them. I have other expectation.

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The sky was clear yesterday as my friend and I, along with her sister walked the nearby park.

We saw people running around Tan Track, just enjoying their sundays. We were enjoying our sunday too. It is just that my feet were already painful.

We also went to Queen Victoria Market where there are lots of cheese, choco, and bread. I love that place. I love bread!

I tried “borek” the spicy lamb one. It was quite spicy but I love the hot bread. But the spices and lamb can do a lot on one’s breath. So be ready to pop in a mint candy after.

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The famous American doughnut with jam. Good thing I am not into donuts because the line here was loooong… ūüôā

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The only flower shop in this market. It’s colorful that is why I asked my friend to take this picture of me with the flowers. ūüôā

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Melbourne City. So pretty and quite clean. But I think I love it more at night when the old buildings look even more old–ladden with wisdom.

You are going to love me Melbourne. ūüôā

Grateful

Things are falling into place.¬† I have met key people in my life here already. It’s nice to see them again–to converse with them.

I feel grateful that they have spent time with me.

Total tourist today ūüôā

The grafitti street. I don’t know the name of this place but with all the vandalism (supposed to be a grafitti), some artwork is destroyed.

Intramuros? Australian Old Gaol.

State library. Felt like I was in National Treasures movie.

Eiffel Tower? Don’t really know this place but it’s interesting.

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Looks pretty. I hope to be rich enough to afford a place here. ūüôā

But I could still change my mind. A family of my own on my mind ūüôā

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Victoria Barracks

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What a beautiful day ūüôā

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Southgate

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Doing tricks. Maybe I should do this for now. ūüôā

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Discipline.

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I like this building, tank-like.

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Beautiful Melbourne view.

Lessons:

People are busy. It wouldn’t hurt to be a little more sensitive to the needs of others but we should not really expect much from others.

I am ready for this place. People ask me how I feel. I don’t really know. I just want to do what I intend to do here–thrive.

So grant me favor God. Thank You Lord.

Difference

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I’ve been sticking to this change for almost three weeks now. Is there a development or a difference? Not much on this picture. But my clothes are more loose now. People could see the difference now.

The difference also this time around is that I’m loving veggie dishes now as compared before. Before I avoided veggies because I don’t know how many calories are there. But now I have my own device on estimating its calories. Moreover, I find that even if I am starving, after two to three spoonfuls, my hunger is over and I feel satiated. So portion size is not much of a problem.

I am just looking forward to jogging if my feet can handle my weight. I don’t want to risk it. I kno I am not really a professional jogger but I love it after jogging like I am doing something good to my body.

Have a great day! ūüôā

Handling Criticism

Taken from Day 26 of Word 4u Today Devotional.

Criticism will make you a beter person if you do these three things:

Look beyond the criticism and see the critic. ¬†If it is someone you respect, listen to what they say. ¬†If it’s someone who’s constantly critical, don’t place too much value on what they say; they’re probably just projecting their frustrations onto you. …Some folks only talk when they’re upset. ¬†The important question is, does your critic sincerely want to help you?

Try not to take yourself too seriously. ¬†Let’s face it, we all do things we regret. ¬†But when you laugh at yourself and learn from it, you’re growing into maturity.

Know the difference between a constructive and destructive criticim.  Learn how to interpret criticism by asking:

In what spirit is it given? ¬†If your critic’s attitude is kind, rest assured it’s meant to be consttructive.

When is the criticism given? ¬†When somebody criticizes you publicly, usually their intention aren’t the best.

Why is the criticism given? ¬†“The purposes of a man’s heart are deep waters, but a man of understanding draws them out” (Proverbs 20:5 NIV). ¬†When people are hurting, they tend to hurt others. ¬†So always ask, “Was this criticism given for my benefit or out of personal hurt?”