Two Status

Thinking about my lovelife or the lack thereof, I opened my FB homepage. I saw status from 2 ladies. The first one was about how she was leisurely walking and looking up then she saw some artworks. Enjoying it, she took pictures and posted on FB. She’s obviously very happy. And I know why.

The next status was just pictures of people with this lady. This lady is charming, attractive to boys. In the picture, she was drinking with friends. This lady was in a relationship but she was still married. So she could not marry her bf yet.

A question entered my mind. Which of these example would I choose to follow?

The first one followed and surrendered her lovelife to God. There were struggles but she let God take hold of her heart. The result is a beautiful, better than ever love life. I learned that surrender and obedience to God yield the best result. She had to wait but it was worth it.

The second one followed herself. What she wants. She has drawn her security from the affection and attention of the opposite sex. She didn’t really want what happened to her. She was just a victim of circumstances. She’s in love but she could not just marry him.

The obvious choice would be the first one. Surrendering and obeying God with our lovelife require grace from God to endure the wait. To stand God’s refining fire. God will always be there ready to help us when we ask Him to and even if we don’t ask Him. He’s there ready to protect and guard our hearts and to burn all the impurities of our lives. We can rest in the truth that God will give us what is best for us and when it is from God, there will be peace. 🙂

Nasi

There’s Noodle Bento on West and they serve very nice Malaysian food. They don’t have Hainanese Chicken though. Oh well, I went there yesterday and bought this.

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I think this is called Seafood Nasi. They give a big serving. I ate this for yesterday’s lunch and today’s breakfast. 🙂

It should be my goal to try to eat everything on their menu during my whole stay here in this side of NSW.

God has been good to me. Bits and pieces of niceness from people I don’t expect to be kind to me make me think of God’s work in my life. Thank You God.

Convictions and rebuke are God’s discipline. Because He loves me. Like a father disciplining his daughter simply because he loves her.

I am no wiser than I think I am. I just have to obey God. Godly counsel from other people helps. Thank You Lord.

Scrap

Scrap. But even if it is a scrap, it’s still a treasure for me. Limited for now. But I try to enjoy it as much as I can.

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I would often walk here during my day off…yes under the heat of the sun…see my shadow? 🙂

Notice the mountain that serves as a border. What’s on the other side?

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Town proper at 5pm. Almost all stores are already closed.

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Rugby Park near our area. Rugby? Is that where the solvent boys have their sessions? Hehe…

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On my way back to the apartment.

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The owner of this lawn/grass walks barefoot here. Seems logical because I feel guilty stepping on this very green very pretty grass. 🙂

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My favorite west. According to some, it is dangerous here. So I have to leave before it gets dark.

I also like the Mckers (not sure about the spelling but that is how people call Mcdo here) at west. Date with God.

Some revelations from God that brought tears to my eyes:

God has put me here to set me apart. For whatever His purpose is. He is not finished with me yet.

Only Way

I went here with high hopes.  Isn’t this God’s blessing for me?  Doesn’t He say that He’s going to bless me here?  I went here by faith–anticipating the great things that God is about to do with my life.  I was looking forward to ministry, doing good and great things.

Disappointments after disappointments.   I was lucky enough to set foot on this place.  This place is beautiful.  This place has fresh air.  Lots of free birds, beautiful flowers.  It’s painful to think that I wasn’t contributing enough.  I feel like I’m betraying their trust.  I don’t know how to help myself.  I’ve done what I could.  I’ve loved them enough it hurts.  Maybe I’ve got it wrong.  I had a different expectation.  Yes, I’ve done my best except for this one thing–COMMITMENT.  When I couldn’t get what I want, I held back.

But what works for me before doesn’t work now.  I’ve been disappointed a lot of times.  I am on the verge of giving up and I have given up.  I don’t know how to help myself anymore.  Only God can help me now.

I surrendered this to God.  I don’t expect much anymore.  And that point of giving up–of acknowledging my weakness, that God rises up to help me.  He has always helped me in every way.  But somehow I was always trying to rely on my own ability.

This has been another humbling experience for me.

Now that I am not expecting much, every good thing that happens becomes magnified.  This is God’s glory at work in my life.

I am looking to a fresh new start.  This time I will be committed.  This time I won’t back down.  This time I will embrace the culture.  This time I will love the people around it.  This time I will not expect much from them.  This time I know that God is the Only One who can help me with my skills and knowledge.  With God in it, it’s never too late to start again.

God the Father, put me where You want me to be.  In Jesus’ name, Amen.

3 Months

It’s been three months now.  Away from home.  I have appreciated Philippines more now that I am here.  But this place has been growing in me.  I know that if ever I would leave this place, I would miss this, too.

Everything that happens to us can teach us a lesson or two.  It’s just a matter of perspective.

Do not assume.  It’s better to be sure than to assume and make mistakes.  Have faith, yes, but do not assume i.e. have faith that God will give you someone who will love you–a reflection of God’s love for you but do not assume that this particular person is the one for you unless there is a confirmation.  What is that confirmation?  If that guy would actually lay down his intention for you. 🙂

Do not give up.  Starting over is hard.  But it will get easier somehow.

To a grateful person, nothing is wasted.  Avoid being proud.  Remind yourself about  humility.  There is a lesson you can learn from everything.  There is something good in everyone..

Without God, I am nothing.  Everything happens with God’s permission.  He knows what us happening in our lives. 🙂  It is His grace that all these favors have been given to me.

Wherever you are, if God is with you, you will be okay no matter what.  My loneliness and homesickness caused me to seek God more.  There are moments though that I feel okay.  How God loves me.  How God has been teaching me so many things–like how to love, like how to trust Him more.

Love these people.  God wants me to love the Australians by introducing Jesus to them.  I hope that there will be opportunities to do that and that I will finally overcome our language barrier so I can communicate with them more.

Walk by faith and not by sight.  The hand of God is upon my situation.

Surrender to God’s will because His plans are the best.  As Eli would say, “He is the Lord.  Let him do what he thinks is best.” (1 Samuel 3:18).

I anticipate what God is about to do in my life.  I am sure of the blessings He is about to give me–something great is coming my way and it’s going to be good 🙂

Why I Chose to be a Glutton and Suffered Tonight

There was jasmine rice left, plus that Spam.  But then I was craving for chips (fries), so I decided to drop by Northgate Shopping Centre to buy chips ($3.50) and sweetcorn ($2.20).  I was happily eating chips on my way home.  Then I cooked the corn while eating the spam and rice.  I also drank soda from the fridge.  But then I remembered that I still have some Nescafe Mocha ($3.51 per 10 sachets on sale).  But I remembered that I have to drink my milk (choco milk fortified with Calcium).  So I drank 1 glass (300mg Calcium per 250 ml of milk which is around $2.50 per box) but I would need around 500mg of Calcium so I had to drink another glass.  But this time I was already full.  I told myself that I should not drink anything anymore but I don’t want to go down later just to drink that glass of milk.  So out of laziness, I forced myself to drink that milk.  After that–disaster.  I tried lying on my side just to help my stomach to empty some of its contents, but I could not take it anymore.  I threw up.  There goes my 300mg Calcium.

I would not want to waste all these food but I learned that I should not force myself.  I may gain weight easily but my stomach can only take in as much given a short period of time.  So I should plan what I eat and the amount of it.

Gluttony is not an option.  Gluttony is a sin.  Everything should be in moderation.

I really need to plan my meal now. Hmmm…

Courageous

I’ve watched two movies last night–October Baby and Courageous.  What a great monday night, right? 🙂

I was inspired to think about this on love:

Don’t worry about love, for love will find its way into the hearts of two people meant to be…trust that love will find its way 🙂

A love that you do not have to force.  That’s the beauty of love, it will happen on its own.  Staying in love takes commitment, though.  Loving a person is always painful because you’re opening up yourself to this person.  With this person you are vulnerable.  And as much as you want to, no one is perfect–everyone is flawed.  And these flaws hurt.  Except for the love of God.  God loves us and will never hurt us.  He may allow painful things to happen to us but it is always for our own good.  He only wants the best for us.  He will not let you cry by selfishness because He is selfless that He gave His life for us just to save us.  God’s love is restoring, refreshing, oh-so-good, it is gentle.  It is kind.  It is patient.  Read 1 Corinthian 13 and you will know the kind of love that God has for us.

In the final moments in October Baby movie, the girl was walking away from her father towards her dormitory with her boyfriend.  They were about to hold hands when the girl looked back first to her father then hold her boyfriend’s hand.  The girl loves her father more than she loves her boyfriend.  That’s how I would want to be if I enter into a relationship/marriage.  I want to keep God at the center–the first in my life, my One and Only God.  I don’t want to fall into idolatry.  I will always want to choose God over any other.