This is the state of my heart.  This is from the lyrics of Thristy Merc’s Someday:

Just wait and see

You gotta hear what I say
I’m in love with you
I’m not so far away

Someday, someday
I will be here babe
Someday, someday
I will be the one babe

Someday, someday 
I’ll know that you love me 
Don’t have to try 
Love will take us there babe 

I know that you’re always what I want babe 
I will be the one babe 

Which takes me to this post from tumblr about waiting and patience 🙂

“The wait is what kills me. But when it happens to you it will be worth it. It will be worth the long nights, the sadness, the aching questioning, the tired searching…Just hold fast to God. You’re not alone. Many are in the struggle with you. So my advice is –Forget about it. Drink, eat, take all the joy you can possibly take in, and relax in peace. When Jesus turned water into wine at the wedding party we don’t imagine Him holding a wine glass with a smile on His lips – But that was His first miracle! Life is meant to be enjoyed, celebrated, inhaled. The man(or woman) will come, but for now sit with Jesus at the party, drinking in the pleasures of life” (godlydatingandfeeling)

This reminds me of the time I applied to migrate to this country.  I was at the point of total surrender and trust.  Whether I got it or not was alright with me because I have the peace and joy of God in my life.

I want the peace and joy from God to come back in my life.

Note: This was written around 2015. I was feeling impatient and heartbroken with the waiting. Looking back now, I did have some regrets. Wasted energy and time. Trying to please the wrong person. I guess what I can do now is learn from my mistakes. Pick up my abandoned dreams, explore them, work my way around them and finally make them a reality.