This is not the life I have imagined for myself. Just thinking of what I have to go through, it really is an effort to get up in the morning and continue on. Most of the time I want to give up. But I can’t be selfish now.
I would ask God why He put me in this place and not that place instead? And the reason that came to my mind was that He wanted me to concentrate on becoming a registered professional here. If He would put me in that place, I may not be able to concentrate and just do church work. Like join small groups, attend activities, have fun. He wanted me here for me to witness His glory and the wonders that He would do for and through me here.
Anyway, I just want to share this that I’ve read in a book:
Obedience is willingly submitting to the process God has chosen for us to be conformed to the image of His Son.
This is God’s chosen process for me. I have to undergo through this so I can be conformed to the image of Jesus. 🙂
I just have to trust Him on this. I have to remind this to myself everyday. 🙂