God Speaks

Something happened in me last night–a realization that I could love again–others. Things are getting clearer now. I felt that I could let go of some things. My focus is fixed on God again. And for the first time I felt happy because of a preaching. I think I have found the pastor I want to listen to. 🙂

It’s been a while since I looked forward to a worship service. I looked forward to hearing God’s Word and anticipate that God would speak to me. It’s been a while. The former pastor has that effect on me– I guess sense of humor really does wonder. I know that God can use anything to speak to us but it’s really been a while. I am thinking that I could attend the service at this place then do VG at this place. One is for fellowship and the other is for myself.

Thank You God. 🙂


This is my season of getting lighter. I love this season. It’s the season I feel how I love myself because I’m doing this for me and this is the season that the stronghold of gluttony has been broken. By the grace of God, this has been a breakthrough.

I love walking through the mall and look at the pretty dresses and imagine them on me. 🙂

I’ve been rejected and offended that it led to loving myself and being my own best friend. This led to encourage myself.

I don’t mind counting calories because it makes my pants fit me, my uniform is not suffocating me anymore, my face smaller.

I love this season–the season of possibilities–anticipating the fulfilled promises of God.

On to another topic, I brought my friend along in one of our worship service and she told me later on that Victory is deep. She thought that Victory is all about socialization (fellowship) and not strong on the Word of God. She was proven wrong. Then she told me those magic words, “Maybe that is why you are ON FIRE”. Wow! Really?! It’s so nice to know that people can see that change in me. It means that God is really working in me–to transform me. 🙂

Oh Fence

Ephesians 6:7 – With good will doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men.

I really enjoy worshiping the Lord and spending time with friends–fellow believers. 🙂 Spent time last night at Northpark and then at Serenitea. Got my first taste of milk tea and I say I like it–it’s just a sip but I’m glad cause I know now how it tastes.

These past few days, a lot of people has somehow offended me. It’s a long story but these offenses made me ask God if I’m such a failure that nobody seems to appreciate me. And this is His message for me: Do it for the Lord and He will be the One who will appreciate you. This is just my interpretation but the actual verse from the Bible is the verse written above. 🙂

God knows my growth and all my efforts. Maybe to some it is not enough, but even the little things we do, if we do it for the Lord, He knows about it and it is never wasted. He will be the One to show His appreciation to us.

Another verse to confirm His message:

Judge your worth and value by what God says about you in His Word, not by how somebody else treats you. (Ephesians 2:4-10)

Thank You God for Your Word 🙂


A post in facebook made me think what if God said “no” to my heart request. I will still praise and worship God. I trust in Him that He has a plan for me, for my future and hope, that whatever happens, God will transform my heart into whatever He wants it to be.

God is very faithful to those who are His. This afternoon He showed me this book of inspirational stories about this significant woman who let me in on their life when they were still young. These stories answered some of my questions about their life.

God, I trust in You. 🙂

His Response

I realized that when you’re in God, He gives you promises–more than you could ever want. And the best part is–He is faithful to His promises. He will keep them.

God’s promises for me so far…

1. He will make a way when there seems to be no way.
2. God will fight the battle for me.
3. God has plans for me for my future and hope.
4. Someone who will love me without me forcing him to
5. My victory through Christ is a done deal.
6. I am loved no matter what my past is.
7. God will bless me just because He wants to.

God also reminded me that I should not lose my focus on Him. He knows the desires of my heart. But right now, He wants me to focus on Him and delight in Him. And I see myself worshiping Him and delighting in Him in all circumstances. I see myself smiling and being joyful and this joy in me shows. I see myself being made whole my identity becoming clear to me because of God’s transformation of my heart. I see myself so in love with God. 🙂

Isaac and Rebekah

I am just inspired with this story. God, I pray You will give me my Isaac, just like Rebekah when all she did was get water from the well, be kind to stranger, and obey Your command. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Genesis 24

A Wife for Isaac

1Abraham was now a very old man. The LORD had made him rich, and he was successful in everything he did. 2One day, Abraham called in his most trusted servant and said to him, “Solemnly promise me 3in the name of the LORD, who rules heaven and earth, that you won’t choose a wife for my son Isaac from the people here in the land of Canaan. 4Instead, go back to the land where I was born and find a wife for him from among my relatives.”
5But the servant asked, “What if the young woman I choose refuses to leave home and come here with me? Should I send Isaac there to look for a wife?”

6″No!” Abraham answered. “Don’t ever do that, no matter what. 7The LORD who rules heaven brought me here from the land where I was born and promised that he would give this land to my descendants forever. When you go back there, the LORD will send his angel ahead of you to help you find a wife for my son. 8If the woman refuses to come along, you don’t have to keep this promise. But don’t ever take my son back there.” 9So the servant gave Abraham his word that he would do everything he had been told to do.

10Soon after that, the servant loaded ten of Abraham’s camels with valuable gifts. Then he set out for the city in northern Syria, [a] where Abraham’s brother Nahor lived. 11When he got there, he let the camels rest near the well outside the city. It was late afternoon, the time when the women came out for water. 12The servant prayed:

You, LORD, are the God my master Abraham worships. Please keep your promise to him and let me find a wife for Isaac today. 13The young women of the city will soon come to this well for water, 14and I’ll ask one of them for a drink. If she gives me a drink and then offers to get some water for my camels, I’ll know she is the one you have chosen and that you have kept your promise to my master.

15-16While he was still praying, a beautiful unmarried young woman came by with a water jar on her shoulder. She was Rebekah, the daughter of Bethuel, the son of Abraham’s brother Nahor and his wife Milcah. Rebekah walked past Abraham’s servant, then went over to the well, and filled her water jar. When she started back, 17Abraham’s servant ran to her and said, “Please let me have a drink of water.”

18″I’ll be glad to,” she answered. Then she quickly took the jar from her shoulder and held it while he drank. 19-20After he had finished, she said, “Now I’ll give your camels all the water they want.” She quickly poured out water for them, and she kept going back for more, until his camels had drunk all they wanted. 21Abraham’s servant did not say a word, but he watched everything Rebekah did, because he wanted to know for certain if this was the woman the LORD had chosen.

22The servant had brought along an expensive gold ring and two large gold bracelets. When Rebekah had finished bringing the water, he gave her the ring for her nose [b] and the bracelets for her arms. 23Then he said, “Please tell me who your father is. Does he have room in his house for me and my men to spend the night?” 24She answered, “My father is Bethuel, the son of Nahor and Milcah. 25We have a place where you and your men can stay, and we also have enough straw and feed for your camels.”

26Then the servant bowed his head and prayed, 27″I thank you, LORD God of my master Abraham! You have led me to his relatives and kept your promise to him.”

28Rebekah ran straight home and told her family everything. 29-30Her brother Laban heard her tell what the servant had said, and he saw the ring and the bracelets she was wearing. So Laban ran out to Abraham’s servant, who was standing by his camels at the well. 31Then Laban said, “The LORD has brought you safely here. Come home with me. There’s no need for you to keep on standing outside. I have a room ready for you in our house, and there’s also a place for your camels.”

32Abraham’s servant went home with Laban, where Laban’s servants unloaded his camels and gave them straw and feed. Then they brought water into the house, so Abraham’s servant and his men could wash their feet. 33After that, they brought in food. But the servant said, “Before I eat, I must tell you why I have come.”

“Go ahead and tell us,” Laban answered.

34The servant explained:

I am Abraham’s servant. 35The LORD has been good to my master and has made him very rich. He has given him many sheep, goats, cattle, camels, and donkeys, as well as a lot of silver and gold, and many slaves. 36Sarah, my master’s wife, didn’t have any children until she was very old. Then she had a son, and my master has given him everything. 37I solemnly promised my master that I would do what he said. And he told me, “Don’t choose a wife for my son from the women in this land of Canaan. 38Instead, go back to the land where I was born and find a wife for my son from among my relatives.”

39I asked my master, “What if the young woman refuses to come with me?”

40My master answered, “I have always obeyed the LORD, and he will send his angel to help you find my son a wife from among my own relatives. 41But if they refuse to let her come back with you, then you are freed from your promise.”

42When I came to the well today, I silently prayed, “You, LORD, are the God my master Abraham worships, so please lead me to a wife for his son 43while I am here at the well. When a young woman comes out to get water, I’ll ask her to give me a drink. 44If she gives me a drink and offers to get some water for my camels, I’ll know she is the one you have chosen.”

45Even before I had finished praying, Rebekah came by with a water jar on her shoulder. When she had filled the jar, I asked her for a drink. 46She quickly lowered the jar from her shoulder and said, “Have a drink. Then I’ll get water for your camels.” So I drank, and after that she got some water for my camels. 47I asked her who her father was, and she answered, “My father is Bethuel the son of Nahor and Milcah.” Right away I put the ring in her nose and the bracelets on her arms. 48Then I bowed my head and gave thanks to the God my master Abraham worships. The LORD had led me straight to my master’s relatives, and I had found a wife for his son.

49Now please tell me if you are willing to do the right thing for my master. Will you treat him fairly, or do I have to look for another young woman?

50Laban and Bethuel answered, “The LORD has done this. We have no choice in the matter. 51Take Rebekah with you; she can marry your master’s son, just as the LORD has said.” 52Abraham’s servant bowed down and thanked the LORD. 53Then he gave clothing, as well as silver and gold jewelry, to Rebekah. He also gave expensive gifts to her brother and her mother.

54Abraham’s servant and the men with him ate and drank, then spent the night there. The next morning they got up, and the servant told Rebekah’s mother and brother, “I would like to go back to my master now.”

55″Let Rebekah stay with us for a week or ten days,” they answered. “Then she may go.”

56But he said, “Don’t make me stay any longer. The LORD has already helped me find a wife for my master’s son. Now let us return.”

57They answered, “Let’s ask Rebekah what she wants to do.” 58They called her and asked, “Are you willing to leave with this man right now?”

“Yes,” she answered.

59So they agreed to let Rebekah and an old family servant woman [c] leave immediately with Abraham’s servant and his men. 60They gave Rebekah their blessing and said, “We pray that God will give you many children and grandchildren and that he will help them defeat their enemies.” 61Afterwards, Rebekah and the young women who were to travel with her prepared to leave. Then they got on camels and left with Abraham’s servant and his men. 62At that time Isaac was living in the southern part of Canaan near a place called “The Well of the Living One Who Sees Me.” [d] 63-65One evening he was walking out in the fields, when suddenly he saw a group of people approaching on camels. So he started toward them. Rebekah saw him coming; she got down from her camel, and asked, “Who is that man?” “He is my master Isaac,” the servant answered. Then Rebekah covered her face with her veil. [e] 66The servant told Isaac everything that had happened.

67Isaac took Rebekah into the tent [f] where his mother had lived before she died, and Rebekah became his wife. He loved her and was comforted over the loss of his mother.



A simple life colliding with an elite life.
If I upgrade myself
Will you learn to love me?
If I put on more make-up
Rebond my hair
Lose some weight
Will you notice me now?

If I become rich
Make more money
Can I level up with you?

But we have something in common
You love God and I love Him, too.
And in His eyes, we are equal.
He both loves us.
He gave us grace.
So I’m leaving it all up to Him 🙂