God Speaks

Something happened in me last night–a realization that I could love again–others. Things are getting clearer now. I felt that I could let go of some things. My focus is fixed on God again. And for the first time I felt happy because of a preaching. I think I have found the pastor I want to listen to. 🙂

It’s been a while since I looked forward to a worship service. I looked forward to hearing God’s Word and anticipate that God would speak to me. It’s been a while. The former pastor has that effect on me– I guess sense of humor really does wonder. I know that God can use anything to speak to us but it’s really been a while. I am thinking that I could attend the service at this place then do VG at this place. One is for fellowship and the other is for myself.

Thank You God. 🙂


This is my season of getting lighter. I love this season. It’s the season I feel how I love myself because I’m doing this for me and this is the season that the stronghold of gluttony has been broken. By the grace of God, this has been a breakthrough.

I love walking through the mall and look at the pretty dresses and imagine them on me. 🙂

I’ve been rejected and offended that it led to loving myself and being my own best friend. This led to encourage myself.

I don’t mind counting calories because it makes my pants fit me, my uniform is not suffocating me anymore, my face smaller.

I love this season–the season of possibilities–anticipating the fulfilled promises of God.

On to another topic, I brought my friend along in one of our worship service and she told me later on that Victory is deep. She thought that Victory is all about socialization (fellowship) and not strong on the Word of God. She was proven wrong. Then she told me those magic words, “Maybe that is why you are ON FIRE”. Wow! Really?! It’s so nice to know that people can see that change in me. It means that God is really working in me–to transform me. 🙂

Oh Fence

Ephesians 6:7 – With good will doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men.

I really enjoy worshiping the Lord and spending time with friends–fellow believers. 🙂 Spent time last night at Northpark and then at Serenitea. Got my first taste of milk tea and I say I like it–it’s just a sip but I’m glad cause I know now how it tastes.

These past few days, a lot of people has somehow offended me. It’s a long story but these offenses made me ask God if I’m such a failure that nobody seems to appreciate me. And this is His message for me: Do it for the Lord and He will be the One who will appreciate you. This is just my interpretation but the actual verse from the Bible is the verse written above. 🙂

God knows my growth and all my efforts. Maybe to some it is not enough, but even the little things we do, if we do it for the Lord, He knows about it and it is never wasted. He will be the One to show His appreciation to us.

Another verse to confirm His message:

Judge your worth and value by what God says about you in His Word, not by how somebody else treats you. (Ephesians 2:4-10)

Thank You God for Your Word 🙂


A post in facebook made me think what if God said “no” to my heart request. I will still praise and worship God. I trust in Him that He has a plan for me, for my future and hope, that whatever happens, God will transform my heart into whatever He wants it to be.

God is very faithful to those who are His. This afternoon He showed me this book of inspirational stories about this significant woman who let me in on their life when they were still young. These stories answered some of my questions about their life.

God, I trust in You. 🙂