Love

Break my heart for what breaks yours…

I am so fired up to advancing the Kingdom of God–to sharing the good news but it was not easy. People in the Philippines already know God but the problem is not a lot has a personal relationship with Him.

Last sunday, I tried to invite a friend to attend the service. She texted me beforehand asking if I was around. I told her I was and invite her to the service but she replied that it was not her thing. I did not respond right away, attended the service first then asked her later what she meant by not her thing. She replied with another it was not just her thing.

I am saddened and hurt, for me and for God. I feel like she’s rejecting me and God.

Apart from Christ, our life falls apart.

Then another friend asked me how I was doing. I think she might have been offended by how I answered her chat messages. But then I tried to be nicer and told her about God’s goodness in my life and how if my ex and I were not meant to be then both our hearts will be changed by God. Then she did not answer me anymore.

I don’t really need people telling me why I had to end the relationship, giving me “lame” excuses. When God speaks, you can’t really avoid it. Obeying Him is far better than all the excuses.

Just plant the seed. 🙂 God will make it grow 🙂

T4V

Yesterday I graduated from Training for Victory (T4V). After 10 saturdays of attending lectures and listening to everything about discipleship, I have done it with God’s grace. I know it’s because of God’s grace that I am able to finish this–with the insecurities I feel, it’s a miracle I am able to go through this.

Thank You God for Your grace.

After graduation, I attended the Saved Festival at SMART Araneta. I felt blessed and it’s so nice to worship God. I had a realization (revelation) that I need to worship God–it’s innate in us. God has put some ideas on how I could worship Him everyday–first thing in the morning.

Again, thank You God.

God has filled my heart with so much joy. I love You God.

Red Ribbon

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I celebrated my friend’s birthday on my own–how pathetic! 🙂

Or it’s just an excuse to eat pasta in white/cream sauce. The choco fudge cake is just a bonus.

If you think I was able to eat all of that cake, think again. It was so sweet my throat cannot handle it. A cake as rich as that should only be eaten in minute amount.

God loves me

Dear Jassy,

I am the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. I demonstrated My own love for you in this: While you were still sinners, I died for you. For great is My love, reaching to the heavens; My faithfulness reaches to the skies! I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. I am faithful to all My promises and loving toward all I have made. I uphold all those who fall and lift up all who are bowed down….I am near to all who call on Me, to all who call on Me in truth. I fulfill the desires of those who fear Me; I hear their cry and save them. I AM LOVE.

Delight yourself in Me and I will give you the desires of your heart. I know the plans that I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Trust in Me with all your heart and don’t lean on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Me, and I will make your paths straight. I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. I Myself will go before you and will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. I am with you; I am your helper. Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet My unfailing love for you will not be shaken!

Cast your cares on Me and I will sustain you; I will never let the righteous fall. If you listen to Me you will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm. I will watch over your life. I am close to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but I will deliver him from them all! So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Cast all your anxiety on Me because I care for you!

Because you love Me, I will rescue you; I will protect you, for you acknowledge My name. You will call upon Me, and I will answer you; I will be with you in trouble, I will deliver you and honor you. With long life I will satisfy you and show you My salvation. If I am for you, who can be against you? Who shall separate you from My love? Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate you from My love. My love for you endures forever!

With All My Love,

The Lord

(*paraphrased from these NIV verses: Ex. 34:6-7; John 15:13; Romans 5:8; Ps. 57:10; Jer. 31:3; Ps. 145:13-14, 18-19; 1 John 4:8; Ps. 37:4; Jer. 29:11; Prov. 3:5,6; Ps. 32:8; Deut. 31:8; Ps. 118:7; Is. 54:10; Ps. 55:22; Prov. 1:33; Ps. 121:7; Ps. 34:18,19; Is. 41:10; Matt. 11:28,29; 1 Peter 5:7; Ps. 91:14-16; Rom. 8:31,38; Ps. 118:1)

***from http://www.discerningtoday.org

My Eyes

“Who made you cry?  Your eyes are swollen?”

People teased me.  I was wondering why.  I don’t have my eyeglasses on because it was missing.  I could not find it.

“That’s the eyes of lack of sleep…”

Some said that I lack sleep.  But I was able to sleep longer than normal last night.

I just told them that I didn’t have my eyeglasses on.

“You gain weight again! Why not sacrifice one meal?”, J told me.

“I don’t want to…”, I told her.

“Why?” she asked.

The conversation went on ending with my just-because-I-don’t-want-to.