It’s the pain at the lower right quadrant, the work pants that I could not close, and the difficulty in breathing. I am at my heaviest. 142lbs. It’s going to be long and tedious. But I’ve done it before. I just hope I’ll find my motivation soon.
In my search upon the “perfect” perfume, I came upon an online shop that sells other scents made from the same company. in this online shop, I can have free shipping if I would purchase one body care products. This is why I have L’Occitane’s Cerisier Princesse (Cherry Princess) Hand Cream. I am almost out of this so before I consume all of it, I might as well take a picture of this and write something about this product just so I would remember someday that once I have used a product as nice as this.
It is enriched with shea butter which makes my hand soft and supple, perfect for winter or cold weather and also after washing my hands which I often do because of my work. But what I love most about this is the scent. it smells so nice. The price is a bit dear at $15, 30 ml but the quality is good so I would say that buying this cream has been worth it.
I live on online shops, friends, hobbies now that I am in a rural town. It takes a while to get used to this lifestyle. Although there are things that I can never do here, there are also heaps that I have been blessed with just because I’m here.
Anyway, I’m currently surfing the net, trying to find inspiration so I can do the things I need to do.
Raw materials for inspiration:
This and a dose of Kpop :)
I went to Sydney last week and I had a great time despite physical exhaustion. I had 20,000 steps because I was busy exploring parts of Sydney I haven’t been to yet. It has been fun. And now I am back in the bush with all the Filipino ingredients I can carry.
I was craving for meat a while ago so I decided to cook adobo.
Since I used pork, I had it boiled first to make the meat tender. After that I just added enough soy sauce then after a few minutes, I added vinegar and black pepper and bay leaf. Adjust the taste with a soy sauce or vinegar.
What am I doing here?
That is what I am always asking myself these past few weeks. Life in the country makes me feel so isolated. I realized that I am now an extrovert ever since I’ve been around people in Tamworth. An extrovert in an isolated place can be challenging.
I’ve been thinking what I really want to do as a hobby. All of the activities I’ve thought of involve interacting with people. I’d rather have coffee with a friend than have movie marathon alone. I’d rather watch news so I would feel connected to the world rather than watch clips on youtube. It’s a good thing that God has given me this opportunity to go and share the Gospel. It’s good that a church has connected me with people in a nearby area to have bible study with. I need this as much as they need it.. :)
It’s been a miracle come to think of it. The church which rejected my call for help telling me that they don’t really cater to discouraged Christians but to lost youths was the church which connected me to this. I still don’t have a regular group that I could ask for help and prayer. I felt very much alone in this. But the miracle is–this doesn’t stop me from driving 40km to this area despite the weather condition just to share Jesus with others. Thank God for Hillsong TV, for podcasts and vidcasts from all these Christian churches. Thank God that there is still a church in my area–it’s not the one I would normally go to but God is still present in that church. Come to think of it–they are my group now. It gives me a warm feeling to be with these people just to see them present at church. I feel happy every Friday night at church. Thank You Lord for sending me help in different ways.
Being in the country paves the way for me to trust God in a deeper level. I see another part of what it’s like to trust God completely. It’s quite new to me but I have a good feeling about this–makes me feel at peace, makes me feel like heaven.
What if this is as good as it will get?
This can’t be it. I refuse to let this be it. The love I have for these people should never be wasted. Something great must come out of this because my love for them is also great.
And that’s why I had a good look with all of these love stories I’ve been in. I guess I can say that in all of these, I’ve done my best, I’ve given my best I could give them with what I have and what I can give at that moment in time. There shouldn’t be any regret.
I’ve planted faith in God in their hearts. I’ve introduced them to Christ. I’ve shown kindness to them. I’ve let them be saved. I’ve given the best love I can give them. So my love was never wasted.